This entire post is nothing but me bitching about my bad day and about just exactly WHY I'm sitting at my computer crying. If you don't care then go the fuck away and don't leave me a comment about 'getting over it' because I deal with WAY too much shit to have to worry about what YOU think I should be 'able to handle.' So if that's what you're going to end up saying then just leave. I'm sorry if I'm bitchy but understand that I really don't want to hear from people who think I'm being childish about being in pain and shit.
Sorry... if you care you can go ahead and read it now.
ISSUE ONE- TEETH:
Well I went to the doctor, got my meds and everything was cool. Then I went to dentists for a check-up. They gave me a teeth cleaning like I asked, I felt pulsing in my teeth but that wasn't unusual so I left, and all was STILL well. Well wouldn't you know it if a few hours later, I try to eat and all my teeth hurt. It hurt so bad that I actually started crying and cupping my hand to my mouth. It hurts to even touch them now, they were find before. Nothing EVER bothered my until I went to fuckin' dentists office.
So I'm crying in pain, trying to eat something because apparently I'm "way too skinny" (Even though last week I was called Fat), and I can't help but wish that the dentist place would know how much PAIN they put me in.
Happy Smile my ass.
ISSUE TWO- SISTER STAYING THE NIGHT:
The only happy thing about today was that I was out of school and my sister Tiki would be spending the night until Sunday. Seeing as how I barely see her, this was going to be great. However, I suddenly find out that my step-dad, John, (<-something is ALWAYs going wrong about me seeing people when he's concerned) forgot about her coming over and allowed his ex-wife to con him into taking their son Matt for the weekend. Now don't get me wrong, I love Matt to death, I'd run out into the street for him if he was in trouble. But I REALLY NEED to see Tiki; Tiki is my ANCHOR right now, I need her. I can relax when I talk to her, and I miss her because I haven't seen her for soo long. And I HATE it when my plans are interrupted, it's one of the things I can't STAND.
So here we were calling his ex-wife telling her he can't come over because Tiki's coming over, now I'd called Tiki and told her it was cool but that I had to call her back so we could do this whole Matt thing. She said okay and we hung up, an hour later, wed just got ahold of Kristen (<-ex-wife) and convinced her not to bring him over when she calls me and tells me she can't go because she has to babysit our little brother named Brayden. So I get a bit upset of course but I don't say anything... UNTIL she told me that she couldn't because it's my Dad's anniversary. Now I love my father too, as much as I love Matt, but he needs to think so that everytime he goes back on his promises (like this one) I don't freak out and start crying. This in turn makes my mom, who I also love, in a bad mood and when she's in a bad mood I get snappy comments and I get yelled at for being depressed at everything.
Guess what... I HAVE A DEPRESSION PROBLEM! I USED TO TAKE FUCKING MEDICATION FOR IT SO EXCUSE ME IF I GET UPSET OVER 'SMALL' THINGS THAT YOU DON'T THINK IS IMPORTANT. I LOVE YOU BUT I DON'T NEED TO FEEL GUILTY FOR BEING DEPRESSED ABOUT SOMETHING.
There are other things that are on this too, but I don't want to write 20 pages about all this shit when half of the 5 people that read this, won't even know about. Thanks for reading (if you managed to get all the way through it anway..) it means a lot.
I'm a lot calmer now that I've written about this, but I do still warn you about what you say when you talk to me... because I can take small things and blow them out of proportion whenever I get this angry/depressed.